Review: Ruin by Rachel Van Dyken
I'm not your typical girl. I've been running away from the memories that haunt me for so long that depression has become my only comfort. I was content in the darkness...until Wes Michals offered to be my light.
I didn't know that time wasn't my ally -- that every second that ticked past was one step closer to the end of something that was beginning to mean the end of myself. He tried to warn me. He promised me all he was able to offer--each moment as it came--but it would never be enough.
Sometimes when you think it's the end, it's only the beginning. Wes thought he could save me, but in giving me everything, he ruined me. Because after one kiss, one touch, I couldn't--I wouldn't ever be the same.
And from that moment on, his heartbeat became my own.
What I thought:
Immediately after I'd read the last page of Ruin I went and wrote a post on being so emotionally drained and overwhelmed that I felt unable to actually write a review. Because no review could ever do this book justice. Let's get that out of the way. No matter what I write I here, no matter how I phrase it and no matter what words I use I could never put in print what this book did to me and how much it meant. I cried by page three. I am an emotional reader but never have I cried by page three before, that's should give you an idea of how much this book got to me.
For any reader who has known someone who is sick, like really, really sick and might not have made it through, this book will touch you so deep. I know it did me. I lost my grandmother to cancer about a year ago and she faded away too fast. She literally faded away, she had always been a big woman and when she passed there was nothing left of her. And that was so hard to see. By the time she was diagnosed there was nothing the doctors could do and she gave up and stopped living altogether and I think that's what hurt the most, to see someone you love just give up like that and lose all their spark. I guess that's why I can relate so much to this book and what's going on between Wes and Kiersten.
Wes is the ultimate boyfriend and perfect in every way. Not in that ridiculously sweet and annoying way but in a way that has you screaming that life is an unfair bitch because you want him to be yours.
Kiersten is so incredibly strong and true that there's no way you can't not live the adventure right there by her side. Because when she meets Wes her life is suddenly filled with reasons to live instead of just existing and he does take her on a true adventures to discover herself.
They're so perfect for each other and their lives are so unfair I would choke fate if I ever got ahold of her.
There are some loose ends that aren't completely tied up throughout the book but none of that matter because in the big picture, they're tiny things.
I don't think I've ever read a book with so many truly inspiring quotes, and normally I don't include quotes in my reviews but these just got to me and I had to share them.
"Just because you need help to cope doesn’t make you any less strong. The truly weak people in this life are the ones who can’t admit they need help. They’re the ones who can’t admit that they can no longer go at it alone. Those are the people who are weak. By asking for help, by taking help, you’ve just admitted your weakness and in that, you find your strength. The weak of the world are those who think they’ve got it all figured out and flaunt it to others.”
“No matter how afraid you are - you can still make the choice to fight. You can still make the choice to walk through the fire- he said to do it afraid.”
“I felt that way, lost, like a missing puzzle piece that forgot it was a part of the rest of the puzzle.”
“Your heart,” I whispered. “I’ll still take it, if the offer stands. I want all of it, even the broken pieces, the shredded ones that no longer fit. I want all of them — all of you. I need it all.”
Ruin is a story about finding something worth fighting for when you've already given up. For finding the desire to live again after you've already accepted the fate of your less than bright future. It's about first loves, first kisses and so many other firsts, and lasts.
This book broke me, it completely shattered me, and then it continued to break my heart over and over again before it sorta pieced it back together. I was so emotionally overwhelmed and I honestly didn't know what to do with myself so I just kept crying even though the book had ended. Reading Ruin will be the best and the worst thing you'll do all year, I promise you that.
About the author:
Rachel Van Dyken is the New York Times, Wall Street Journal, and USA Today Bestselling author of regency and contemporary romances. When she's not writing you can find her drinking coffee at Starbucks and plotting her next book while watching The Bachelor.
She keeps her home in Idaho with her Husband and their snoring Boxer, Sir Winston Churchill. She loves to hear from readers!
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